So I can not force myself to bathe today. I could not force myself to go to a medical appt either. I don't know why. I am completely up and down with my moods. My psy doesn't know what to make of me I think b/c when she asks how I am my answer is always different. Although I think she thinks drugs can stabilize your mood permanently and mine can't be. Our appts. are always about drugs. Drugs and sleep. My sleep is always all over the place too. My psy doesn't understand that either and blames it on caffeine. It's not caffeine. Some days I can rink tons of it and sleep just fine. I've always had up and down sleep. Up and down is what is normal for me. This is why I don't think I will ever really be a productive member of society. It's very hard for me to make commitments. I can have all the best intentions in the world but there is a 50% chance on that day I need to be somewhere that I just can't drag myself there.
On a different note I need to find a diet that works for me. I have always been over weight but with the meds it is out of control. I used to only eat once a day and was still over weight. Now I eat 3-4 times. This is b/c I'm hungrier than I used to be; my rent is now cheaper so I can afford more food; my dr. told me my body would be in starvation mode. This is what I have been eating. Breakfast: mini wheats. Lunch: spaghetti Dinner: spinach salad. Then a random snack. I think the spaghetti will pack on the pounds-of course I put cheese on it. What should I eat to replace it? I need something cheap. Food prices are very high in B.C. Canada. I was thinking about rice with veg? Vegetables are very expensive tho.
http://www.eatingwell.com/recipes/chickpea_spinach_squash_gnocchi.html -- just made this for dinner. gnocchi is cheap (1.29 a package), just add veggies, spices and stock. doesn't need cheese, so low-cal. and very, very nutritious. there are plenty of other amazing recipes on this site. all can be adapted to stay affordable, and many veggie options. a little spaghetti is not going to hurt you. 5 smaller meals is better than 3 big meals. i am not sure that you are eating enough, doesn't sound like 1200 to 1300 calories a day.... can you get a referral to a nutritionist???
ReplyDeleteI will check out that site, thanks! I went to a nutritionist years ago so I know some of the tips. I feel uncomfortable going in again being so obese.
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